I had 5 Mother's Day's with him. 5 glorious days - with the last one just before his diagnosis of Niemann-Pick.
Then came the Mother's Day after we was gone. One of the worst days I have had. I felt like a failed mom - I couldn't keep my child safe, I couldn't protect him - I had failed as a mother.
The Mother's Day I was pregnant with Shelby, I started to look forward to those hand picked or hand created cards. I was confident that I would have many years of those cards to look forward too. My job as a mother wasn't complete - I was given a second chance.
The past couple of years, I have seen posts and articles about International Bereaved Mother's Day. I usually see them the day of, and I never realize when it is coming. I just realized that it is the 1st Sunday in May.
Anyway, today is that day - International Bereaved Mothers Day (#internationalbereavedmothersday). Yes, it's a real day. Would I say "Happy International Bereaved Mother's Day"? Um, no. But I have seen that phrase today. Must be from someone who just didn't realize what it meant.
I found a great article on Huffington Post today. Click here to read it. You can visit the official page about this day here and some additional "holiday" information here.